While in KS I read the Fallen series by Lauren Kate. They were okay...I don't think I loved them but I didn't hate them. It's just that angels don't really do it for me. I'll read the last book when it comes out, but it's not like I'm holding my breath.
At some point I read Enclave by Ann Aguire. I had really high hopes for the book. I also thought it was a stand-alone, as in, not the first book in a series. That alone was a big part of why I was so hopeful. About half way though the book, I realized it couldn't end any time soon...so I looked it up and was terribly disappointed to find that it's book one of a trilogy. The story itself was decent. Post-apocalyptic world where people live underground and have to fight for everything. It seemed like it was going somewhere interesting. Then there were zombies. I find it so difficult to take a book seriously when there are zombies. I should really take some time to consider my aversion to zombies - I don't find them scary, and in fact my first favorite movie ever was Night of the Living Dead (the original). But, I don't think of them as a serious threat. Perhaps there's too much humor surrounding all things zombie for me to consider the possible implications of real-life zombies. Maybe I'd just prefer a more realistic threat... or a threat that isn't so... transparent. Zombies just want to eat people...but they don't care about the destruction of people or society because they're mindless. Mindless things aren't evil (except....well I won't get into politics here). So, anyway... I liked the book apart from the zombies.
I also read Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs. With a name like that, I just knew he'd be spectacular. I was not disappointed. I also don't know if I've already written about this here or not. I know that I absolutely loved the story. There were a couple times when it was slow, but the writing was so good that it didn't matter. I've never read anything similar to this... the time loops, the circus-freak-like characters (capable of making fire or floating...and the invisible boy), THIS particular kind of magic is all new. The process of creating the story was just as interesting, to me, as the story itself. There were pictures peppered throughout - creepy old pictures. They were like old-fashioned circus freak images. The story had a very dark feel in many places, and a lot of really magnificent characters and creatures. I wish that the *love* story would have blossomed a little more, but there will be more books and more time for that later. Because the story is slow at times, I wouldn't recommend this one to everyone. But, for those who appreciate the craft of writing, this is an excellent example of doing it right.
Just this afternoon I finished Crossed, the second in the Matched trilogy by Ally Condie. I found nothing but problems with this book. The chapters switched back and forth between the two main characters, but neither was well-developed...so I kept forgetting which character I was reading. The story that was started in the first book was a rather typical dystopian teen love story. Girl gets matched to perfect guy, but there's a mistake and she's also matched to the bad boy. Naturally she falls for the bad boy. He gets kicked out of the Society, and she goes to find him. Book two is about her finding him and him finding her. Then it turns into her wanting to find the Rising...and him not wanting to find the Rising. There wasn't enough going on...not enough about the Society or anything interesting. It wasn't emotionally engaging at all. There were a couple things that were a little interesting, but they weren't explained...stuff just left for the next book. I was horrified to see that someone had compared it to The Hunger Games. At this point, I'm not sure I'll be reading the final book in the series.
Now for a list of things I've tried to read but gave up on, for whatever reason...
Never Let Me Go - Kazuo Ishiguro. I tried. It was boring. Despite all the great things I've read about the book...it wasn't able to hook me in the first little bit, so I gave up.
Life as We Knew It - Susan Beth Pfeffer. I didn't try very hard with this one. I hate journal format. I also hate when the entire premise of a book is scientifically impossible. If you're going to write sci-fi, write it well... don't assume your reader is too dumb to fact-check.
Starcrossed - Josephine Angelini. This is actually unfair to list here, since I do want to read the book. The only reason I gave up was that the formatting didn't convert... the pdf to mobi thing sort of...ate a bunch of letters and/or punctuation. I read a few books missing letters, and my brain gets it after a bit... but when there isn't any punctuation, it's difficult to tell what's going on.
ANYWAY. Like I said...saving the best for last. It's not often that I become completely absorbed in a book. It's not often that an author creates a world so beautiful and magical that I actually want to live in it... but Erin Morgenstern did just that with The Night Circus. I fell so in love with the feeling of the book... the style and skill and emotion expressed. A while back, NPR had a list of books for people who were sad that Harry Potter was over... had this book been published at the time, it would have topped the list. It's the story of two magicians who are raised to compete against each other... but they aren't told much more than that. An entire circus is created as their competition - and it is amazing. They compete, collaborate, and... every single thing about the book is magical. I wish it would have ended with Prospero's lines from The Tempest... but I love it anyway. It's right up there with HP and The Hunger Games...amazing from start to finish.
And...now I sleep.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
I'm a terrible blogger.
It's been a while since I've found time to write anything...here or otherwise. This whole *being employed* thing is really getting in the way of my regular life. I certainly hope I'm not permanently creatively stifled.
Right now I'm trying to fight feeling awful...knowing yet another cold or something is coming. Oliver is in his third week of having whatever he has. He's finished his antibiotics, but still has the cough...and it's getting bad again. Guess I'll just have to call the doc tomorrow. It's so frustrating to have a sick kid... :( it's only compounded by not feeling well myself.
Anyway... we had Thanksgiving, and it was as usual. There was food, and Oliver didn't really want to eat any of it. I'm still enjoying leftovers. After dinner, I went to bed. I left the house a bit before 10 for Black Friday, and it was fun. I had to park pretty far away...but got everything I wanted (except the $3 waffle maker). I'm currently using the new laptop, named Friday. I haven't yet hooked up the printer..or even taken it out of the box. It was enough for me to get some programs installed on this today! I also got a Shark Steamer...something I've wanted for a long time. Oliver and I steam cleaned part of the kitchen the next day :) I got Oliver some cars and a new Play-Doh kit. His main xmas present isn't going on sale, and will have to be ordered (it's a big blue truck). The next day, Oliver and I went back to the store for the one thing I didn't get during the initial sale - a camera. The line was waaaay too long, so I gave up. The next day, we got the last one they had. We gave it to my mom when we got home, because it was a birthday present and not an xmas present.
We've got the whole area ready for the xmas tree...all the necessary furniture has been moved and the carpet has been shampooed. I'm too tired to put the thing up, though. Meant to do it Friday, but didn't get around to it...and yesterday I worked. Today has been a long day of...nothing. Installing programs, reading a sub-par book, and hoping my immune system kicks in soon.
Something I've learned since returning to work is that the public is unclean. No one cares how sick they are when they leave the house. No one cares what kinds of nasty germs they leave all over everything and everyone. Please, people...stay home when you're sick. Don't infect me. My immune system isn't prepared for all of this. I was at home with a kid for two and half years...not exposed to much at all...so I'm weak!
Anyway... that's enough of the nothing. Time for a book update.
Right now I'm trying to fight feeling awful...knowing yet another cold or something is coming. Oliver is in his third week of having whatever he has. He's finished his antibiotics, but still has the cough...and it's getting bad again. Guess I'll just have to call the doc tomorrow. It's so frustrating to have a sick kid... :( it's only compounded by not feeling well myself.
Anyway... we had Thanksgiving, and it was as usual. There was food, and Oliver didn't really want to eat any of it. I'm still enjoying leftovers. After dinner, I went to bed. I left the house a bit before 10 for Black Friday, and it was fun. I had to park pretty far away...but got everything I wanted (except the $3 waffle maker). I'm currently using the new laptop, named Friday. I haven't yet hooked up the printer..or even taken it out of the box. It was enough for me to get some programs installed on this today! I also got a Shark Steamer...something I've wanted for a long time. Oliver and I steam cleaned part of the kitchen the next day :) I got Oliver some cars and a new Play-Doh kit. His main xmas present isn't going on sale, and will have to be ordered (it's a big blue truck). The next day, Oliver and I went back to the store for the one thing I didn't get during the initial sale - a camera. The line was waaaay too long, so I gave up. The next day, we got the last one they had. We gave it to my mom when we got home, because it was a birthday present and not an xmas present.
We've got the whole area ready for the xmas tree...all the necessary furniture has been moved and the carpet has been shampooed. I'm too tired to put the thing up, though. Meant to do it Friday, but didn't get around to it...and yesterday I worked. Today has been a long day of...nothing. Installing programs, reading a sub-par book, and hoping my immune system kicks in soon.
Something I've learned since returning to work is that the public is unclean. No one cares how sick they are when they leave the house. No one cares what kinds of nasty germs they leave all over everything and everyone. Please, people...stay home when you're sick. Don't infect me. My immune system isn't prepared for all of this. I was at home with a kid for two and half years...not exposed to much at all...so I'm weak!
Anyway... that's enough of the nothing. Time for a book update.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
In Memory of...
This morning I woke up knowing the day just felt...wrong. There was something off, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I've been sick most of the week, but...this felt different. I got ready for work in a daze, stood in line at Starbucks, and then went home sick from work. Once I get this out, I should be well enough to go back in - because now I know why I am beside myself today. Seven years ago today, my dad died.
I was downloading Rise Against to replenish my files after the most recent reformat, and decided to listen to Swing Life Away. The very first time I heard the song, I thought of my dad. I suppose it's only fitting that that was the song playing when my aunt called to say he'd died.
The week that he died, I had been thinking about what his funeral would be like. It'd been years since I last saw him or spoke to him, but just felt that it'd be soon. I imagined what it'd be like to see family members I didn't know or hadn't seen in a decade. I wondered in particular about my cousin Andrew...about what kind of guy he was growing up to be. The things that I imagined were far from the reality that I found myself in the next week.
There's so much about this that I repress. Mostly, the guilt. I was 19 years old the last time I saw him. He was happy to see me when my cousin dropped me at his house (by force, because I wasn't exactly willing). We had a good day. It was interesting to see the similarities between us, even after virtually no contact for most of my life. When I left that day, we exchanged addresses. I told myself that I'd write to him once, and if he wrote back, we'd go from there. But if he didn't, I was done. I never heard from him.
The August before he died, I was in Kansas. He was working just a couple blocks over, but I wouldn't go see him. Everyone knew I was in town, and if he'd wanted to see me, he could have come over any time. My grandma said that one day I'd regret refusing to see him. I can't say that it's a regret, but the guilt stings. I know I wasn't responsible for the lack of relationship between he and I when I was a child, but I can't help but think I should have behaved better as an adult. It took a couple months of therapy to stop blaming myself. I had what my therapist termed 'complicated grief,' which basically meant there were aspects to the mourning process that I was unable to work through in the typical ways.
I always saw my father's death as the death of a familiar stranger. It's difficult to reconcile feelings when you don't know what your feelings are... I think part of me will always feel the guilt. And as a wave of guilt washes over, so does a wave of anger. The anger has only increased since becoming a mother. I don't understand his indifference.
And then there's the book. I've tried to work on it. I never had the heart to tell anyone in the family that the book is something I hate. Responsibility is the only thing that's kept me from burning it. I got a rough draft of the book for my 16th birthday, accompanied by a letter. The letter explained that the book was his life's work, and his reason for being such a terrible father. I've never read it. However, the letter came in handy when it was time to write something for the funeral...since I knew so little.
And the funeral was surreal. There were so many people...and they all told me stuff about my father. They told me about how he loved me and worried about me...all things I had no first-hand knowledge of.
I was in shock the whole time I was in Kansas for the funeral, but remember one thing very clearly: the smell of death. It never leaves. Once you know it, it stays with you forever. My cousin, the same who called to tell me about my father, lost her husband (my actual cousin) a couple months later. She told me that the smell came in the days before he died. It's an overpowering sickening sweetness. It clings to everything. Just thinking of it now brings it back, mingled with cigarette smoke and wood burning and the damp cold of November in Kansas.
Something else that I've told very few people is that... I saw what was left behind. No one told me much at the time, and I know they were just trying to protect me from further breakdown, so I've never been mad about being kept in the dark. I just wish I'd never seen what was in the cellar. My father had a heart attack on his way to get a cup of coffee. He never knew - the autopsy said it would have been instant. On his way down, he hit his head. There was blood. It was also a few days to a week before anyone found him, and it'd been warm. Intellectually, I knew that there had to be some degree of decomposition. I never allowed myself to really consider what that meant. Even in the house with its smell of death. I'm thankful I was spared the sight of that on the kitchen floor. The trash bags full of bloody rags and paint scrapers edged with coagulated blood in the cellar were more than I could take. I didn't realize what I was looking at at first... it wasn't until I'd emptied half of the bags out on the floor that I realized. Someday I hope to forget all that.
Despite everything, the worst of it is that I have no stories to tell. As the one person who should, I feel at a loss. Family members have passed things on since his death - mementos, photos, etc. - but I have few memories of my own.
My mom told me that he used to sit on the back porch of our little farmhouse and play this song... seems a good place to end this:
I was downloading Rise Against to replenish my files after the most recent reformat, and decided to listen to Swing Life Away. The very first time I heard the song, I thought of my dad. I suppose it's only fitting that that was the song playing when my aunt called to say he'd died.
The week that he died, I had been thinking about what his funeral would be like. It'd been years since I last saw him or spoke to him, but just felt that it'd be soon. I imagined what it'd be like to see family members I didn't know or hadn't seen in a decade. I wondered in particular about my cousin Andrew...about what kind of guy he was growing up to be. The things that I imagined were far from the reality that I found myself in the next week.
There's so much about this that I repress. Mostly, the guilt. I was 19 years old the last time I saw him. He was happy to see me when my cousin dropped me at his house (by force, because I wasn't exactly willing). We had a good day. It was interesting to see the similarities between us, even after virtually no contact for most of my life. When I left that day, we exchanged addresses. I told myself that I'd write to him once, and if he wrote back, we'd go from there. But if he didn't, I was done. I never heard from him.
The August before he died, I was in Kansas. He was working just a couple blocks over, but I wouldn't go see him. Everyone knew I was in town, and if he'd wanted to see me, he could have come over any time. My grandma said that one day I'd regret refusing to see him. I can't say that it's a regret, but the guilt stings. I know I wasn't responsible for the lack of relationship between he and I when I was a child, but I can't help but think I should have behaved better as an adult. It took a couple months of therapy to stop blaming myself. I had what my therapist termed 'complicated grief,' which basically meant there were aspects to the mourning process that I was unable to work through in the typical ways.
I always saw my father's death as the death of a familiar stranger. It's difficult to reconcile feelings when you don't know what your feelings are... I think part of me will always feel the guilt. And as a wave of guilt washes over, so does a wave of anger. The anger has only increased since becoming a mother. I don't understand his indifference.
And then there's the book. I've tried to work on it. I never had the heart to tell anyone in the family that the book is something I hate. Responsibility is the only thing that's kept me from burning it. I got a rough draft of the book for my 16th birthday, accompanied by a letter. The letter explained that the book was his life's work, and his reason for being such a terrible father. I've never read it. However, the letter came in handy when it was time to write something for the funeral...since I knew so little.
And the funeral was surreal. There were so many people...and they all told me stuff about my father. They told me about how he loved me and worried about me...all things I had no first-hand knowledge of.
I was in shock the whole time I was in Kansas for the funeral, but remember one thing very clearly: the smell of death. It never leaves. Once you know it, it stays with you forever. My cousin, the same who called to tell me about my father, lost her husband (my actual cousin) a couple months later. She told me that the smell came in the days before he died. It's an overpowering sickening sweetness. It clings to everything. Just thinking of it now brings it back, mingled with cigarette smoke and wood burning and the damp cold of November in Kansas.
Something else that I've told very few people is that... I saw what was left behind. No one told me much at the time, and I know they were just trying to protect me from further breakdown, so I've never been mad about being kept in the dark. I just wish I'd never seen what was in the cellar. My father had a heart attack on his way to get a cup of coffee. He never knew - the autopsy said it would have been instant. On his way down, he hit his head. There was blood. It was also a few days to a week before anyone found him, and it'd been warm. Intellectually, I knew that there had to be some degree of decomposition. I never allowed myself to really consider what that meant. Even in the house with its smell of death. I'm thankful I was spared the sight of that on the kitchen floor. The trash bags full of bloody rags and paint scrapers edged with coagulated blood in the cellar were more than I could take. I didn't realize what I was looking at at first... it wasn't until I'd emptied half of the bags out on the floor that I realized. Someday I hope to forget all that.
Despite everything, the worst of it is that I have no stories to tell. As the one person who should, I feel at a loss. Family members have passed things on since his death - mementos, photos, etc. - but I have few memories of my own.
My mom told me that he used to sit on the back porch of our little farmhouse and play this song... seems a good place to end this:
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
End of the Journey...
There's nothing quite like waking up soaked in toddler pee. Poor kid leaked through his diaper... and evidently that made him cold, so he needed to cuddle. In my groggy mostly-asleep state, I wondered how he could possibly sweat so much. I woke up very quickly when I realized that it wasn't sweat. He didn't really seem to mind...
I think that my body dislikes being suddenly reintroduced to all the things that it's allergic to... I feel like absolute crap. Dizzy and congested and coughing. FUN! Can't wait for the Sudafed and Motrin to kick in... I have things to do. Mostly the massive pile of post-vacation laundry that's covering the living room floor...and even more after Oliver's leakage this morning.
Thing is, I'm not sure KS counts as a vacation. I did there exactly what I would have done here, but less comfortably, and without coffee. It was...ok. The library was nice - lots of stuff for Oliver to do and surrounded by a nice park. The coffee place was 50/50...They served me the WORST cup of coffee I've ever had...and I complained to a friend while in a public place. The next time I went back, I explained exactly how to make a good latte... and the girl behind the counter was eager to make sure everything was just fine. So, one good cup of coffee in 10 days. I also read...and slept. Oliver and I spent lots of time at the park. We went down to the river one day and I tried very hard to get decent pictures of him near trees with yellow and orange leaves. He doesn't take direction very well... :) We hung out with John, my dad's best friend, a lot. That was nice - he's a cool guy. My aunt and cousin came down for a day and a half - also nice.
Oliver did amazingly well. I worried that he'd dislike the travel portion of this - it's not much fun to sit in the car for days on end - but he didn't whine or cry about it at all. He said a couple times that he was ready to stop at a hotel or restaurant, or that he wanted to get out of the car, but that's it. He likes his grandma Norma very much... and he was pretty good with John, too. In the 10 days we were gone, I think his communication skills improved significantly. He even used hotel potties. He's such an impressive kid :) He does still say "no I don't want to do it" way more than anything else, though...
Only one of the hotels we stayed in was truly awful...right across the street from an elevator, and the damn thing had fans or something on ALL NIGHT. That turned into a sort of white noise machine, but it didn't make up for the shabby room. I can't help but think of serial killers whenever checking in to hotels... especially remote hotels in creepy little ghost towns.
Then there were all the creepy little ghost towns themselves. Oklahoma, Texas, and Kansas all have dozens of these tiny little towns with boarded up shacks half falling into ruin. Some buildings are nothing more than rickety frames or stone foundations. Once in a while, amid the rubble, there'd be a house or two that looked cared for...like someone was still living there. I couldn't help but wonder why. Even in the towns with maybe a hundred or two hundred people, I couldn't figure out why anyone was there at all.
Eh. I can't focus anymore. Think I'm gonna feed the kid and nap... see if I can get the icky feeling to go away. Might write later about some books... might not... :)
I think that my body dislikes being suddenly reintroduced to all the things that it's allergic to... I feel like absolute crap. Dizzy and congested and coughing. FUN! Can't wait for the Sudafed and Motrin to kick in... I have things to do. Mostly the massive pile of post-vacation laundry that's covering the living room floor...and even more after Oliver's leakage this morning.
Thing is, I'm not sure KS counts as a vacation. I did there exactly what I would have done here, but less comfortably, and without coffee. It was...ok. The library was nice - lots of stuff for Oliver to do and surrounded by a nice park. The coffee place was 50/50...They served me the WORST cup of coffee I've ever had...and I complained to a friend while in a public place. The next time I went back, I explained exactly how to make a good latte... and the girl behind the counter was eager to make sure everything was just fine. So, one good cup of coffee in 10 days. I also read...and slept. Oliver and I spent lots of time at the park. We went down to the river one day and I tried very hard to get decent pictures of him near trees with yellow and orange leaves. He doesn't take direction very well... :) We hung out with John, my dad's best friend, a lot. That was nice - he's a cool guy. My aunt and cousin came down for a day and a half - also nice.
Oliver did amazingly well. I worried that he'd dislike the travel portion of this - it's not much fun to sit in the car for days on end - but he didn't whine or cry about it at all. He said a couple times that he was ready to stop at a hotel or restaurant, or that he wanted to get out of the car, but that's it. He likes his grandma Norma very much... and he was pretty good with John, too. In the 10 days we were gone, I think his communication skills improved significantly. He even used hotel potties. He's such an impressive kid :) He does still say "no I don't want to do it" way more than anything else, though...
Only one of the hotels we stayed in was truly awful...right across the street from an elevator, and the damn thing had fans or something on ALL NIGHT. That turned into a sort of white noise machine, but it didn't make up for the shabby room. I can't help but think of serial killers whenever checking in to hotels... especially remote hotels in creepy little ghost towns.
Then there were all the creepy little ghost towns themselves. Oklahoma, Texas, and Kansas all have dozens of these tiny little towns with boarded up shacks half falling into ruin. Some buildings are nothing more than rickety frames or stone foundations. Once in a while, amid the rubble, there'd be a house or two that looked cared for...like someone was still living there. I couldn't help but wonder why. Even in the towns with maybe a hundred or two hundred people, I couldn't figure out why anyone was there at all.
Eh. I can't focus anymore. Think I'm gonna feed the kid and nap... see if I can get the icky feeling to go away. Might write later about some books... might not... :)
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Home.
We're home.
I'm tired... so I'll write more about the experience (or lack thereof) after I've spent some quality time with my bed.
I'm tired... so I'll write more about the experience (or lack thereof) after I've spent some quality time with my bed.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
The Mid-Morning Coffee Break.
I'll be leaving for Kansas in less than a week, and rather than excitement, I feel completely overwhelmed. The car is a POS...at best. I got AAA, but not even that makes me entirely comfortable about this trip cross-country with my kid. The poor guy is going to be so bored...and I will be, too. I've already made lists of what to pack, what to buy, and what has to be done before we can leave. The planning phase is nearly as stressful as the travel phase. I am not a traveler.
Anyway... On to the book. Last week I finished Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children, and it was excellent. I decided to read it based on two things - it has a creative title, and I like the author's name (Ransom Riggs - c'mon, he's got to be cool). I think I read a synopsis at some point, but by the time I started reading the book, I'd forgotten what it was about. It was so unique, though! I don't think anything properly describes it without completely giving everything away. And the way that the author went about creating characters and bringing them to life with REAL old photos - genius. I've read a lot of sci-fi fantasy stuff, and can only take so many vampires and werewolves and fairies and trolls before I'm ready to scream. The characters are none of those things, yet they're still amazing superhuman beings. The *romance* could have been better, but this IS a boy story, so I'm not expecting much in that respect. The writing, though... wow. Ransom Riggs can WRITE. The words were beautiful and moving and...every last one of them was right. It flowed perfectly. I don't think I ever tripped over an awkwardly placed word.
Anyway, it's about a boy and his relationship with his grandfather - sort of. It's also about his relationship with his father...and then his acceptance of himself as a separate and strong individual, not a crazy, misguided kid. He goes off to Wales with his father, to reconcile his feelings surrounding his grandfather's death - to make sense of it, to come to terms with the fact that his grandfather was a regular guy and that there was nothing magical about him or anything particularly sinister about how he died. There's no such thing as monsters! But, after hanging out on the tiny island off the coast of Wales for a while, he starts to realize that things aren't what they seem - his grandfather's stories were all true. There are children who are capable of really amazing things, sometimes they're even sort of scary. And, there are monsters. The whole story felt a little sad - here are all these kids, most of them throw-aways, who've been segregated and can't ever return to the real world. There was one little boy with his soldiers - little mud men he'd brought to life with the hearts of mice - I could see him so clearly. While what he was doing was pretty disturbing, he was just a kid with toy soldiers. While they're kept apart from the real world, the live in a sort of manufactured paradise. Naturally, that has to end... and it has to be sort of our main boy's fault. The monsters arrive. There are some little battles. There are some goodbyes. And then they sail off into the glow of a war... and I sat staring at my Kindle because, while it ended in a great place, it didn't really end. Who knows how long I'll have to wait to find out what happens next. The author's blog talked about looking for pictures for the sequel. Bleh. I want book 2.
But you should read book 1.
And I should get back to doing my homework...and planning my reluctant trip...
(I would have posted a picture, but it seems that my amazon associates thing is broken :( hope it gets fixed...)
It seems that books are all I ever write about. Perhaps if I had a regular life, that'd be different. Sadly, I'm not sure I'd be so apt to share the sordid details of reality...
Anyway... On to the book. Last week I finished Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children, and it was excellent. I decided to read it based on two things - it has a creative title, and I like the author's name (Ransom Riggs - c'mon, he's got to be cool). I think I read a synopsis at some point, but by the time I started reading the book, I'd forgotten what it was about. It was so unique, though! I don't think anything properly describes it without completely giving everything away. And the way that the author went about creating characters and bringing them to life with REAL old photos - genius. I've read a lot of sci-fi fantasy stuff, and can only take so many vampires and werewolves and fairies and trolls before I'm ready to scream. The characters are none of those things, yet they're still amazing superhuman beings. The *romance* could have been better, but this IS a boy story, so I'm not expecting much in that respect. The writing, though... wow. Ransom Riggs can WRITE. The words were beautiful and moving and...every last one of them was right. It flowed perfectly. I don't think I ever tripped over an awkwardly placed word.
Anyway, it's about a boy and his relationship with his grandfather - sort of. It's also about his relationship with his father...and then his acceptance of himself as a separate and strong individual, not a crazy, misguided kid. He goes off to Wales with his father, to reconcile his feelings surrounding his grandfather's death - to make sense of it, to come to terms with the fact that his grandfather was a regular guy and that there was nothing magical about him or anything particularly sinister about how he died. There's no such thing as monsters! But, after hanging out on the tiny island off the coast of Wales for a while, he starts to realize that things aren't what they seem - his grandfather's stories were all true. There are children who are capable of really amazing things, sometimes they're even sort of scary. And, there are monsters. The whole story felt a little sad - here are all these kids, most of them throw-aways, who've been segregated and can't ever return to the real world. There was one little boy with his soldiers - little mud men he'd brought to life with the hearts of mice - I could see him so clearly. While what he was doing was pretty disturbing, he was just a kid with toy soldiers. While they're kept apart from the real world, the live in a sort of manufactured paradise. Naturally, that has to end... and it has to be sort of our main boy's fault. The monsters arrive. There are some little battles. There are some goodbyes. And then they sail off into the glow of a war... and I sat staring at my Kindle because, while it ended in a great place, it didn't really end. Who knows how long I'll have to wait to find out what happens next. The author's blog talked about looking for pictures for the sequel. Bleh. I want book 2.
But you should read book 1.
And I should get back to doing my homework...and planning my reluctant trip...
(I would have posted a picture, but it seems that my amazon associates thing is broken :( hope it gets fixed...)
Sunday, September 11, 2011
The Colossal Disappointment
The Trylle "trilogy" by Amanda Hocking has taken its place at numbers 2 through 4 on the WORST BOOKS I'VE EVER READ list.
And I hate to say that, because had she an editor, these books could have been great. The grammatical errors and type-o issues throughout made me think that it was just a sloppy conversion to .mobi. No one would publish something with so many errors, right? Wrong. When self-publishing, I guess editing isn't a concern. At times the errors made the story hard to read.
And then there's the story... Probably the biggest issue I have here is that this is not a trilogy. This is another thing an editor could have helped with...or someone, anyone! The author had to have shown this to someone before self-publishing, right?? In a trilogy (or series...) there is an overall issue (main story) and some smaller battles or issues (all of the sub-stories) that lead to the ultimate resolution. Sub-stories can be individual novels...so long as the ultimate goal remains present. Take HP, for example... There's the overall battle of good vs. evil, almost everyone vs. Voldemort. Each book had elements of that, yet each was its own story leading toward the resolution. The books built on each other. With each resolution, lessons were learned and characters grew...making them into characters who were capable of the final resolution. The Trylle books did not have sub-stories. There weren't lessons learned in books 1 and 2...they didn't end in appropriate places...they didn't work as stand-alone novels. The rise and fall of action never happened. There was very little growth, especially considering the circumstances. Had these books been seen by an editor, one book would have been the result. And that one book probably would have been decent.
Maybe. I guess now it's time for the spoilers. It took 26% of the first book for something to happen. Before then it was just weird girl and her nice friend and weird guy who stares at weird girl all the time. Not too much going on... but then, all of a sudden, weird guy tells weird girl that she's a troll. And so is he. I was not sure what to think...trolls!? But, no one writes about trolls. It's a good idea. And these trolls were sexy... They run off to the land of the trolls, and weird girl is informed that she's a princess. A very special princess. And she's also completely in love with weird guy. Thing is, she's a princess, and he's little more than a slave - it'll never work...they'd both be exiled. There was a lot of running away...and then it was over, with no resolution and without anything much really happening. There are some mildly dramatic things that happen in the next books, but they're all resolved far too simply. The secondary characters are far more interesting than the main character, and as the book is a first person narrative, that's very disappointing. Her voice isn't at all unique.
Anyway... girl can't have the guy she loves, and for the good of the kingdom, she marries a guy she doesn't love. It's ok though, because he doesn't love her either, and they're good friends. The night before the wedding, the guy she loves comes to her and wants just one night with her...but she says one night isn't enough. Then, a bunch of random things happen. People behave in ways that don't really make sense...the most interesting aspect of the story - the class system in the troll world, which is preventing lots of relationships - is glossed over. There are some war things with the bad trolls...there are some mildly political deals made...there are plans to help other trolls and make things better. Then, somewhere near the end of the third book, after spending all this time thinking that girl is going to change the world when she's queen so that she can be with the man she really loves, girl ends up cheating on her husband with random guy who came from the bad troll camp and has asylum. She wants just one night with him...but he doesn't think one night is enough. Right here she should have stopped and remembered her conversation with the guy she used to love...but that isn't what happened. Husband wants a divorce anyway because he doesn't love her... and so... she ends up marrying the guy she cheated with...not the one she loved for most of the story. She married 2 guys in less than a year...and no matter how happy and in love she seemed with the second, it's still the wrong guy. He was high-ranking, so it was a lot easier to write him in and make them get married than it would have been to change the world and write a love story that worked. Oh well. There was no conclusion. There was no progress. The world was just as messed up in the end as it was in the beginning, but hey, she married a guy who was her equal, and the one she'd loved was flirting with someone who was his equal... happy endings all around... :|
It just felt like...rather than take the time to do things right, the author took lots of easy ways out...and wound up with a very disappointing trilogy that could have been a really good novel. What a shame. It was sometimes painful to read simply because I was thinking about how good it could have been.
And I hate to say that, because had she an editor, these books could have been great. The grammatical errors and type-o issues throughout made me think that it was just a sloppy conversion to .mobi. No one would publish something with so many errors, right? Wrong. When self-publishing, I guess editing isn't a concern. At times the errors made the story hard to read.
And then there's the story... Probably the biggest issue I have here is that this is not a trilogy. This is another thing an editor could have helped with...or someone, anyone! The author had to have shown this to someone before self-publishing, right?? In a trilogy (or series...) there is an overall issue (main story) and some smaller battles or issues (all of the sub-stories) that lead to the ultimate resolution. Sub-stories can be individual novels...so long as the ultimate goal remains present. Take HP, for example... There's the overall battle of good vs. evil, almost everyone vs. Voldemort. Each book had elements of that, yet each was its own story leading toward the resolution. The books built on each other. With each resolution, lessons were learned and characters grew...making them into characters who were capable of the final resolution. The Trylle books did not have sub-stories. There weren't lessons learned in books 1 and 2...they didn't end in appropriate places...they didn't work as stand-alone novels. The rise and fall of action never happened. There was very little growth, especially considering the circumstances. Had these books been seen by an editor, one book would have been the result. And that one book probably would have been decent.
Maybe. I guess now it's time for the spoilers. It took 26% of the first book for something to happen. Before then it was just weird girl and her nice friend and weird guy who stares at weird girl all the time. Not too much going on... but then, all of a sudden, weird guy tells weird girl that she's a troll. And so is he. I was not sure what to think...trolls!? But, no one writes about trolls. It's a good idea. And these trolls were sexy... They run off to the land of the trolls, and weird girl is informed that she's a princess. A very special princess. And she's also completely in love with weird guy. Thing is, she's a princess, and he's little more than a slave - it'll never work...they'd both be exiled. There was a lot of running away...and then it was over, with no resolution and without anything much really happening. There are some mildly dramatic things that happen in the next books, but they're all resolved far too simply. The secondary characters are far more interesting than the main character, and as the book is a first person narrative, that's very disappointing. Her voice isn't at all unique.
Anyway... girl can't have the guy she loves, and for the good of the kingdom, she marries a guy she doesn't love. It's ok though, because he doesn't love her either, and they're good friends. The night before the wedding, the guy she loves comes to her and wants just one night with her...but she says one night isn't enough. Then, a bunch of random things happen. People behave in ways that don't really make sense...the most interesting aspect of the story - the class system in the troll world, which is preventing lots of relationships - is glossed over. There are some war things with the bad trolls...there are some mildly political deals made...there are plans to help other trolls and make things better. Then, somewhere near the end of the third book, after spending all this time thinking that girl is going to change the world when she's queen so that she can be with the man she really loves, girl ends up cheating on her husband with random guy who came from the bad troll camp and has asylum. She wants just one night with him...but he doesn't think one night is enough. Right here she should have stopped and remembered her conversation with the guy she used to love...but that isn't what happened. Husband wants a divorce anyway because he doesn't love her... and so... she ends up marrying the guy she cheated with...not the one she loved for most of the story. She married 2 guys in less than a year...and no matter how happy and in love she seemed with the second, it's still the wrong guy. He was high-ranking, so it was a lot easier to write him in and make them get married than it would have been to change the world and write a love story that worked. Oh well. There was no conclusion. There was no progress. The world was just as messed up in the end as it was in the beginning, but hey, she married a guy who was her equal, and the one she'd loved was flirting with someone who was his equal... happy endings all around... :|
It just felt like...rather than take the time to do things right, the author took lots of easy ways out...and wound up with a very disappointing trilogy that could have been a really good novel. What a shame. It was sometimes painful to read simply because I was thinking about how good it could have been.
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